When the BBC came to my home to film

 

When the BBC came to my home, I found I was easy with the camera. This is because before they butchered my face, I was a childhood actor. So I'm used to cameras from an age before I knew what cameras were.

 

People say I do things as compensation for the terrible scars I have on my face but I am just doing the things I did before they were put there. I still think of myself as handsome. I have found that I am still loved by women but I do not get on with men.

 

I have always tried to carry on as if I had not been disfigured. I have often been beaten back by other men but not by ladies.

 

Some men say they hate my face but women seem not to and say my face is ok, recently a man said my face was ok.

 

In addition to disfiguring my face my brain was damaged. This damage was to the front part of my brain and the effect is for me to loose track when I am speaking or writing. As I speak I think of something to say next but this pre-speech chunk slips out of my mind and I am at a loss for words. I'm ok if I rehearse but normal conversation is impossible for me. This is less severe when I write as I can look over what I have written and that reminds me.

 

Before this lobotomy I wrote complex books and planned the book months in advance before I wrote it down. New ideograms would occur in my mind and then I would assemble them into complex speech or the written word.

 

In practise that meant that in conversation I would listen to the strings of speech of my conversational partner and then give a long complex lecture as my answer.

 

My whole family is like that.

 

Now I cannot hold a conversation because as I listen to the strings of speech of the other person I compose and answer to each of his points but forget them before he stops for my response.

 

As a consequence I no longer speak to people and therefore no longer socialise.

 

That is the consequence of the crime of psychiatry.

 

Christians spout words and do not listen they do not converse they answer criticism by injuring their critics brain. Christians do not reason they sweep aside opposition with the gun, the leucotome and brain poison pills.

 

Christians are criminally insane.

 

It is money really because the priests and other church officials make their money from their parishioners who give them money. If the people do not give them money they steal it.

 

Christians are criminally insane.

 

Chop ya brain out, Chop!